I just edited a few photos while he was lying on his bed. When I finished I set the wallpaper to one that I liked. Trying to send a "sign" to tell him that I want US to be like that photograph. I also arranged his desktop icons to form the word - I Love U. Would he realise? I guess he wouldnt... Unless he feels it, then he would understand my "encrpyted message" right infront of him. Then I went to lie beside him.
Just after listening to this song - I cant fight this feeling anymore by Chicago, immediately, I felt like kissing him on his lips. To tell him how much I love him.
But.
With him lying beside me. Body so stiff. So emotionless. I decided I couldnt.
I wanted to ask him a question, "do u still love me?" But after initiating a move by putting my arms around him, he got up and went to the laptop that was playing the next song by Chicago - Wicked Game. Then, he left the room and closed the door behind him. My heart sank. It had a kind of "sour-ish" feeling again. I get this feeling whenever I feel upset or hurt.
After that, I walked out of the house for some fresh air. When I came back into the room, I saw that his laptop wallpaper had changed to one of the photos that I edited. Just to a different one. Probably one that he preferred. I was really happy. Even his Msn Messenger display pic was changed to one of the edited photos i did... Really very happy. But was that his "sign of improvement for me?" I dont know...
I was about to ask him that question. But he left too soon. Now I am listening to - If you leave me now, another song by Chicago. It seems that all the songs are related to my situation and how I feel.. Is our relationship improving or depreciating?
"I cant fight this feeling anymore... Stop playing wicked games with me... and if you leave me now, everything would be gone."
Please stop playing games with my heart. I realised how painful it is for you to treat me like this instead of scolding me straight in the face.
I'm sorry. It's all my fault.
I know I should respect your wishes in "that matter" and I shouldnt show my temper when you're tired.
Please forgive me.
If you continue being like this, I'm afraid I'll just be a zombie too. Just like you are now.
Current occupation: GUCCI GROUP at Collins st (Melbourne)
Ambition to be: Boss of my own boutique (Fashion & Design)
A patriotic: Singaporean citizen
Who stays in: Fortune Park (Hougang)
An unpatriotic: Australian permanent resident
Who has residencies at: Spore.Gold coast.Brisbane.Melbourne
Dearest Pet border collie: Angel
Loves & Thoughts
My Brands: Louis Vuitton.Burberrys.Tiffany & Co.Hermes.Coach
Her choice of watch: Patek Phillipe
Wishlist 0: Sony Vaio Laptop C series Pink - thanks to my parents.
Wishlist 1: Bvlgari 5-band ring white gold - thanks to my parents.
Wishlist 2: LV handbag from Italy - thanks to my parents.
Wishlist 3: LV keypouch - thanks to my parents.
Wishlist 4: LV wallet - bought by yours truly.
Wishlist 5: Kenzo Flower - thanks to Steven & darlyn.
Wishlist 6: Gucci Envy Me - thanks to Victor & darlyn.
Wishlist 7: Hugo Boss XX - bought by yours truly.
Wishlist 8: Ms Dior Cherie moisturiser & perfume
Wishlist 9: Victoria's secret Love spell - thanks to ah mei.
Wishlist 10: Tiffany & Co charm tag bracelet - thanks to darlyn.
Wishlist 11: Sony Cybershot T2 white - thanks to darlyn.
Wishlist 12: My doggie Angel - my baby
Wishlist 13: Apple MacBook white - thanks to darlyn.
Bdae Gift 2008 #1: Tiffany & co twin-hearts necklace & YSL eyeshadow cosmetic - thanks to Andrew, David, Deborah, Glenn, Joy, Min, Noel, Nicholas & Sophie
Bdae Gift 2008 #2: Mango tangerine scented candle & card - thanks to Nicole, Wilson & Jess
Bdae Gift 2008 #3: Scented candle - thanks to Kailin
Bdae Gift 2008 #4: SK Jewellery Diamond ring & tulips - thanks to darlyn
Bdae Gift 2008 #5: Scarf & bracelet - thanks to Ervin, Junhui & CK
Bdae Gift 2008 #6: Choc rose & choc heart - thanks to Amy
Bdae Gift 2008 #7: Black dress from Topshop- thanks to ah mei
Wants to: achieve her ultimate goal
Wonders: About Paris & Venice
Enthusiast of: Her white Nissan Skyline
My second ride: black Honda Jazz (2007 model) named Xiao Hei
Special thanks to: Daddy & Mummy
Fav sinful indulgence: Cadbury's
Fav alcoholic beverages: Southern comfort coke, Bourbon coke, Lychee Martini, Malibu pineapple, Pina colada, Sex on the beach, Shirley temple, Long island ice tea, Bailey's on the rock
Fav beverage: Bubble tea with pearls & rainbow jelly
Thinking of his idea: The Romantic Getaway with Him
Angsana Maldives Velavaru
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"Life is a succession of moments, To live each one is to succeed."
Lost and unfound
My late grandpa's: Only photograph
My late great grandma's: Only golden ring
My 2006 bdae present: Missy Elliot Adidas Jacket
My head: If it could be detached from my body
My softspots
My one & only girlfriend: Jeannette
My perfect star: Nicole
My little sis: Patricia
My fattest papa: Josh
My pimp daddy: Wilson
My sweets: Jessica
My big sis: Linda
My bestest buddy: Norman
My dearest homie: David
Not forgetting... My darling: Shouyat
[Special thanks to all of you who played a big part in my life]
Angsana Maldives Velavaru
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