Ever heard of the song Zombie by Cranberries? Well this is exactly how I am feeling right now... today has been such a very HOT day. 41 degrees i heard. Fucking HOT. Makes my morale even lower. Here I am, sitting in Uni with a no-emotion person sitting beside me. Has he lost all feeling or does he know I still exist?
World of my own.
What is he thinking of right now? Are u showing me that you lost interest in our love?
What is SHE thinking of right now? Are u showing that you lost interest in our friendship? Maybe for her.. I'm just too over-sensitive. Or aren't I?
Mmm...
As summer arrives, seems that the world's becoming increasingly darker and darker for me... I've got no choice but to keep on moving on... assignments. This coming Saturday would be a friend's birthday. AND the guy beside me would be working till 6pm on Saturday. Should I follow him or should I not? I feel as if we were just lovers by name and strangers by sight. We speak to our friends more than to each other these 2 days. TWO DAYS! mm.. today's the 3rd day anyway. How long will this carry on... Maybe it's all mistake on my part but this is not the way to solve it though... I really wouldn't mind talking about it but it seems that he's numb from it all.
I think I've got a few quotes to describe the feelings & emotions I have right now...
Here they are:-
The Grand essentials of happiness are: something to do, something to love, and something to hope for.
Love does not consist of gazing at each other, but in looking together in the same direction.
Love never dies a natural death. It dies because we don't know how to replenish its source. It dies of blindness and errors and betrayals. It dies of illness and wounds; it dies of weariness, of witherings, of tarnishings.
The sage said, "The best thing is not to hate anyone, only to love. That is the only way out of it. As soon as you have forgiven those whom you hate, you have gotten rid of them. Then you have no reason to hate them; you just forget."
Well well well... I guess my mind's gone blank now. Feeling abit better after typing out my feelings. Although virtually but at least I can carry on doing my assignment now, without the lonesome pain in my heart - at least for now.
Till then.
Love You,
Love Me
Thinking of him since 11:27 PM
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HEy, Ada here... juz send u a mail at friendster, g0 check it out s00n... seems lik u've got sum problems wit ur relationship, dun worry t00 much... guess it will b better... kinda miss those sch days wit u... hope to c u bk in s'pore soon... got time rememb to email... take care & stay pretty...
Yup.. But some things are better left unsaid. haha.. surprised to see u in my blog! sorry, I seldom check my Friendster accounts now cause I'm quite busy with Uni. Don't worry lah. I'll be coming back to Spore at the end of the year for about 2-3mths. By then, we can meet up ok? Miss ya lots~
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HEy, Ada here... juz send u a mail at friendster, g0 check it out s00n... seems lik u've got sum problems wit ur relationship, dun worry t00 much... guess it will b better... kinda miss those sch days wit u... hope to c u bk in s'pore soon... got time rememb to email... take care & stay pretty...